Keeping It Real ~ On speaking terms with God

In this past year I have really come to cherish my relationship with God.  I’m going to share a bit of my story today…
“Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.”
You will have to forgive me.  I consider myself to be a “beginner” when it comes to my journey of faith.  I have all sorts of inspirational quotes and sayings that I have jotted onto my iPhone with no references.  So if you know where they are from please share in the comments. 

8 Months ~ pregnant with the boys

 My journey of true faith began with the conception of my children.  Darcy and I had struggled to conceive.  We had turned to a Fertility Clinic for help.  And discovered that our chances of having a baby were significantly lower than that of the general population {something like, it may take 5 times as long}.  After years of planning and trying we conceived in August of 2005.  We miscarried our first child in November.  I remember being devastated.  As we grieved, one of the things that people would ask/tell us was “don’t you think everything happens for a reason?” My reaction was to always feel angry and hurt.  There was absolutely no reason that we should lose our child.  I was not on speaking terms with God.

 The nursery ~ each time we had gone to the clinic, we purchased a teddy bear.

 
Early in 2007 we set off to the Clinic in the hopes of trying again.  It was a mild day in February, a Tuesday.  Darcy and I went to our favorite restaurant, the Mongoli Grill, where we went every time that we were in town.  We both received the same fortune {two fortunes} in our fortune cookies “Tuesday is an especially important day for you”.  On our way home the same day I decided to purchase a lottery ticket.  We won twenty dollars!  
 
“Bloom where you are planted.”
 
And a month later, I knew.  I knew that we were pregnant, I felt it.  The doctor called with my blood work and said “yes, you a barely pregnant.”  I just knew.  Our first ultrasound was scheduled a couple of months later.  The technician scanned my tummy.  She asked about our experience with the fertility clinic.  Had we done invitro fertilization?  No.  Had I been on fertility medication? No.  She said, “wait right here, I’m going to get your husband”.  Darcy came in and the technician showed him the tiny fetus on the screen.  Then she said “and what do you see here?”  “Two?!?”  Sure enough, we were pregnant with twins.  {And Darcy was speechless for at least 36 hours}.

Our first ultrasound ~ baby A and baby B

“Renew a right spirit within me.”
 
Since the birth of our boys I have been on a journey of faith.  I am building and seeking a relationship with God to tell him how incredibly grateful and thankful I am.  That he chose us.  That he has led us on this path of discovery.  That he cares about us and has a grand plan for our lives.  Do I believe, now, that everything happens for a reason?  Yes. And God will reveal all to us in time if we open our hearts and minds to him.

“With God all things are possible.”

 

 

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Hello, I’m Heather!

I'm an active mom of twin boys who is always looking for opportunities to inspire creativity through fun crafts, do-it-yourself projects and delicious recipes. This blog has been an integral part of supporting my little family and I am so grateful to have you become a part of our journey! Let's create together... Read more...

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I love this story! Thank you for sharing such an intimate part of your being.

I love reading that. I have no idea why devastating things like miscarriages are allowed to happen but I believe with all my heart that God is good and that He does good. Even when we don’t understand it. I love that He used these babies to turn your heart to Him. Children are a blessing from the Lord!

What a touching story. Thank you so much for sharing.

I too am some what new in my faith. Trust in him and he will take care of everything. I know this I have two childern thanks to his blessings. Thank you for sharing.

What a lovely post. We too struggled with many years of infertility. Just the not knowing if it would ever happen was the hardest. We now have 6 year old twin girls and 3 year old twin boys. Life can get pretty hectic and I sometimes need to remind myself how very blessed we are. Thank you so much for the reminder. :)